"Let go of the past and go for the future. Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagined."
Henry David Thoreau
About a month or two ago, I made a really big decision for myself. For once in my life, I truly stepped back from all the noise of the outside world and blocked out everyone's voices expect from mine. I took the time to think about what I want for my future and how I see myself moving forward in life. To be honest, what I saw wasn't what I was working towards. I was working towards a dream I thought I had but was really just a facade created by others around me. I was unhappy.
But okay, I guess I should back it up a little before I get all deep!
Every since I was a little girl about seven or eight years old, I wanted to be a teacher. I always pretended to teach my stuffed animals and had my very own white board in my room. Being a teacher was what I was determined to be. As I got older, more into the high school age, I never really took the chance to think about if I still wanted to be a teacher. My family constantly told me it was a perfect job for me, I'd be great as a teacher, and it would be a sufficient career to live off of. Because of that, I went straight into college and started working towards my teaching degree. Why not, right? Apparently I was perfect for the job and there was no point to look into anything else.
Well, that was my biggest mistake.
I only took into account what everyone else was telling me and what everyone else thought I should do. There was never a time I stopped and thought about what I wanted to do. I just didn't know any better. That is until about a month or two ago.
To get your teaching degree, you have to do what's called field experience, which is practically just a time to tutor kids of the same age you plan to teach. Long story short - I pretty much hated field experience. I hated making lesson plans. I hated taking time out of my day to tutor these kids. I just did not like one part of it. That right there should have been my light bulb moment. Although, I didn't come to realize I'm wrong for the job until I decided to take a fiction writing class this semester.
That genuinely turned out to be one of my absolute favorite classes! I loved creating characters, writing various plots, and interacting with others that have the same love. I'm not really one who can say that I love school, but I actually enjoyed having that class. And because of that, I ended up finding what I'm really passionate about. Almost instantly, I set up an advising appointment to figure out what my next step should be, and well - I'm changing my major (it's still weird to admit!).
Yes, I'm in my fourth year of college and going from Early Childhood Education to English! To be completely 100% honest, I couldn't be happier with my decision because this is what I want! A lot of people told me I'm crazy because I'm already so far into the teaching program. Many people (including family) don't think I should change to something like English because of the risk of not having a good career. BUT this is what is going to make ME one step closer to MY dream. I finally figured out what I want for MY life. It's definitely a weight lifted off my shoulders, and probably the best feeling in the world!
Now, you may be wondering why I'm sharing this story with y'all! Well, I'm sharing it because I want to be someone who encourages you to do what YOU want to do and say that it is okay to stop and redirect your path to go towards YOUR dreams. No one has any right to tell you no because anything is possible! Don't let others make you think you aren't good enough to achieve your goals and your dreams. Only you can decipher that.
So go out, be who you want to be, and live the life you imagined! It's never too late to do so!