I have been thinking about writing this for awhile but have been a bit hesitant to post it. I figured now is as good as ever!
All throughout my life, I had always been the type to fly under the radar, especially in middle and high school, and I was very awkward when I had to get up in front of people. There was always just something in the back of my mind telling me that I was being judged, whether it was for my hair, clothes, voice, or the way I looked. It honestly scared me to the point where I was never being myself during that time of my life. I look back now and regret not doing this or doing that, but I see that nothing was done because I was afraid. I was genuinely afraid to be myself, which is one of the hardest things to admit, even if it is just to a bunch of people on the internet.
The reason I wanted to write this though is because I wanted to tell whoever is reading that there is no use in being afraid to be who you are. Trying to be someone or something you're not is pointless and just a mask you're putting on to shield others from seeing how afraid you are. I know for me I used to pretend to be different people depending on what boy I was trying to impress. I'm sure you've seen those shows and movies where the girl tries to be the person she thinks her crush will fall for. Well, that is exactly what I did. I used to like this guy when I was fourteen and pretended to be interested in different baseball teams and trying to act as if I knew everything about them, when anyone could see I didn't. I know now that I was being foolish and should have never wasted my time, but back then I was afraid to be who I really was because I wanted the boy to like me for the person I thought he wanted.
Another reason I thought this post would be a good idea is to show that you don't need to be afraid to do what makes you happy. I have the dream of becoming a published writer, and I used to think it was such a dumb dream because there was no way I could ever work hard enough to get to the point I want and I would just constantly get rejected. I was afraid of what people would think of me if they found out that I was chasing such a crazy dream. It was only just recently that I decided I didn't give a flying flitter about what others think and told my family and boyfriend about my want to publish a book. Each one of them looked at me with a smile on their face and said that they would be behind me the whole way. I realized the feeling of being afraid was such a waste of my time and energy.
I just feel as if it's important for everyone to know that there is no reason to be afraid anymore. Nothing positive comes from the fear of being who you are or going after what you really want. If you are scared of being rejected or failing, then just know that everyone goes through those stages of their lives. Absolutely no one is perfect, and everyone has to fall at least once. You just have to have enough confidence to get yourself back up again and keep going. I promise that things do work out.
Wow, this turned into a much longer post than I anticipated, but I am glad to have gotten off my chest and out for you to see. I know that some of you are older than me and may feel odd about taking advice from someone younger, but if I just help at least one person, then I know this was worth it. I hope you all have an amazing rest of your day, and I will be planning on posting a new review on Friday! See you guys later!:)